I feel so weird right now.

Almost like I'm drugged. (I'm not.) My mind feels like it's all fogged up and I can't seem to think straight.

I'm not depressed (quite the contrary; I have so much to be excited about), though I still am missing someone quite strongly (just 45 more days now).

Most days feel way too long.

But hey, it's almost over now. Just a month and a half more to get through.

I feel like there are so many more things I want to say, but I can't find the words right now.

This kind of sounds depressing doesn't it? I don't mean to sound that way.

Hmm... I think maybe I'm just lonely. My friends are too busy to hang out much anymore. And I feel like I isolated myself from my online friends... when I do come online, I'm always hiding, even though deep down I really miss everyone and want to talk to you guys. I don't know what's with me. I think I'm going to go out of my way and start e-mailing/noting some friends I haven't talked to in a long time. So um... I apologize in advance if you get a weird note/e-mail from me.

And I keep telling myself I'm going to start replying to all the deviations and journals and stuff, but I keep getting overwhelmed. Maybe I need to watch less people. For now I'm going to try starting fresh again. I'm so sorry if any of you feel I was ignoring you. I promise I wasn't.

I guess that's all for now. I know I keep saying you’ll see more of me and then I just disappear again. But I'll try really hard this time. I miss everyone too much.